June 29th

Oh! Grrrr! Yes, I'm angry, I'm furious! I don't even know what to do I'm so angry. I've locked myself in my room and I don't know that I'll ever come out again. If it weren't for talking with you, I don't know what I would do. I know you are my friend and these days it seems like you may be about it as far as friends go. So let me tell you what's going on as I'm sure you have no idea what I'm going on about?
I came home nervous and confused. I felt kinda weird about what I did with my Uncle and maybe a bit like he had somehow planned the whole thing? I still think that maybe he is a pervert and I should just stay away from him, I don't know cause I really like my Uncle. He has always been nice to me and what happened, well, it was just one of those things that happened and I have no idea how or why or what I should do about it. I mean I liked it but it seems wrong now that I'm away from him.
With all that in my head, I started to rethink what I should do about my Dad. I mean growing up he has always been the one to take me out to a game with him and laugh when I had no idea why everyone was so excited about a ball being thrown around, or when I was little he would make faces but he would play dolls with me. We would spread out a blanket on the grass and he would put on his best suit and join us for "Lunchies on the lawn". When I was scared there were monsters in my room he would be the one to lay down with me in the bed until I went to sleep. I remember snuggling up in his arms, it was so warm and wonderful and he would hold me tight and nothing could go wrong, nothing could get me as long as he was there, as long as he kept me safe.

So the absolute worst thing ever has happened. He is treating me like I'm his worst enemy. He won't speak to me no matter what I say. I tried to pull him away and tell him I was sorry for what happened and he turned his head to the side and walked away, jerking his arm from my hand. Oh Diary, my only friend, I nearly died inside. I can't imagine how I could have hurt him so badly! I felt my heart ripped from my chest when he pulled away from me like that. He has never done anything of the sort before, it's killing me!
At first I thought maybe he was just pissed off at something or someone, maybe it wasn't me? But I woke up late after a night of being out with friends and went to the kitchen where everyone was hanging out and talking and I heard him talking, friendly, happy, joking as usual. Thinking maybe he was in a better mood I walked in on everyone and he brought the paper up and over his face and turned into a royal ass! My mother was pleasant to me and offered me something. Then my Dad did something he has never done before, he started criticizing me! Why didn't I have a job? Ok Dad, because I'm doing modeling and I have to be free to go on shoots.
That's not a real job, you need a real job so you can pay for things instead of living off your parents.
What? I never ask you guys for anything!
Then this goes into a round of everyone jumping on me and talking about how much I spend on clothes and music and well, everything! So I got angry and told them if they didn't want me living there I would just leave and so here I am, locked in my room with you, my only friend.

June 30th

I looked for a job today. My Dad refused to look at me, talk to me or even give me a ride so I was forced to walk everywhere. I tried to bum a ride from a friend but everyone else was at work or in classes all day. Maybe they are right, maybe I need a real job but my Uncle says he has another job for me so who knows?

July 2nd

Diary, my friend, I'm at my Uncle's house and feeling much better, at least for the moment. I was really hoping the job my Uncle had for me would pay more but it was only a couple of 100 bucks. Not bad but far from enough to make up for having no job and certainly not enough to go out on my own. I think my Uncle must be psychic because he knew just what to do. I think had he tried to just cheer me up, I would have just become more pissed off and depressed, but instead he told me he wanted to do some "artistic shots" and so he had me put on this cute little pink bikini and then we went into his garage and he gave me boxing gloves and had me go at it with a big punching bag. The bikini, while being very cute, was also very small and thin. While I boxed I could also see myself in the mirror he has along the wall. Looking in the mirror I realized that I may as well have been nude as the bikini showed every curve and detail. I have puffy little areolas but thankfully they are fairly light colored so that you couldn't easily see the color, but you could see the shape. Also I noticed that the bottoms had no liner so you could see the shape of my pussy outlined in the thin pink fabric. As my Uncle shot picture after picture I punched harder and harder and began to sweat. The punches helped me get it all out of my system and I felt so much better after a few minutes. My Uncle joked with me about being a professional fighter and I gave him several poses where I flexed and punched at him. It didn't take me long to notice that he had an erection as he was wearing nothing but a T-shirt and small shorts. He had me take off the gloves and sit on the weight bench for a few shots. He knelt in front of me and snapped a few pictures with me laying back. Then he moved down to the foot of the bench and snapped a few where he was hovering over me. Then he knelt down again and spread my legs open and snapped a few. This time it was his turn to notice my excitement and he saw how wet I was and not from sweat. No, I could feel the sticky warmth of sex in my crotch and he snapped a few pictures before running his fingers up and down my pussy slit. Oh diary, I couldn't help myself, it felt so wonderful to have his fingers running over me and slipping under my bikini bottom. When my Uncle's fingers slipped inside my pussy and he started fingering me, I couldn't help myself, I raised my hips and thrusted into it like I was in heat. He begged to let him pull the bikini bottoms off but I wouldn't let him as the garage door was still open and his girlfriend was inside. What we were doing was crazy, what I was doing was crazy. I should have been saying no, I shouldn't have agreed to the shoot, to the bikini, to even coming over but at the moment when he started rubbing my little cream soaked clit, I knew he was going to fuck me. In fact I think I even whispered for him to fuck me, like a little whore! He pulled down his shorts and pushing my soaking wet bikini bottom to the side he pressed his hard cock down inside me. I nearly screamed with pleasure as I felt it push down deep. It was so erotic and exciting to be fucking right there, in the garage with everyone, anyone able to walk in on us at any moment. My little pussy was literally dripping and his cock was so big, we were both thrilled by the danger of it. When I started to cum I had to bite my hand for fear that someone would hear and really notice us. I moaned into my hand and then I felt him stiffen and knew he was going to cum inside me. He released his hot load of cum into my little pussy as I moaned into my hand. I knew he had just spent a huge load of cum into my little pussy because I could feel it dripping down onto the bench even before I moved. I had to hold the bikini bottom to the side and he snapped a few pictures of the cum dripping from my tiny little pink pussy lips. I held my legs open and sat on the edge of the bench and slowly the cum dripped onto the floor below. My Uncle came in close and snapped a few more pictures and then surprised me as he pressed his face between my legs and began to lick his cum from my pussy! I pulled back instinctively because I had never imagined a guy doing something like that but when his mouth closed around my little hole I closed my eyes and let him work his tongue inside me. After only a few minutes of working his tongue around my little pink lips and down inside my silky warm little pussy, I began to shudder with orgasm. The waves of pleasure moved across my entire body and I hardly cared as he ripped the bikini from my little hips. This wouldn't have been so bad except that we heard his girlfriend call from the house and knew it would only be moments before she was out in the garage. To make matters worse, I felt more of his warm cum starting to make it's way down. I knew it would come dripping out of my pussy at any moment and there was no way to stop it. I grabbed the bikini bottoms from my Uncle's hand and slipped out the back door. I went around back and wearing nothing but the top I slid the sliding glass door open and tip toed to my room. My Uncle's cum still dripping from inside me and down my thighs, I put on shorts and snuck back out the back. When i walked into the garage my uncle was standing over the cum stain on the floor and talking. The whole thing was hilarious...Wait, there is a phone call. Everyone sounds worried, I better go.

July 4th

That's right, it's July 4th but no one is celebrating here. Oh diary, my friend, I feel like dying, like the world is out to get me. I know, I know, you have no idea what I'm talking about do you?
My father is in the hospital!! The only good news is that they think he will be fine but I just completely lost it when I found out. I fell to my knees and just started sobbing! All I could think about was how I had treated my poor daddy. Oh diary, do you think I'm horrible? What if he had died?
It appears that he is just kinda banged up, and no broken bones. But you still don't know what happened so I'll tell you. My father rides his bike for exercise, he isn't hard core about it like some guys but he rides at least 2 or 3 times a week. My mother has told him that she hates it because people just don't look when they are driving and sure enough, some guy was talking on a cell phone and hit him! He was knocked off his bike and throw into someone's front yard! God! What if he had died?! That's all I can think about. I love him so much, he has always done everything for me and I'm such an idiot.

July 6th

I'm so happy diary, my daddy is home and in bed. He has to rest for a few days and I've been waiting on him hand and foot. I smothered him with kisses as soon as he got home and he hugged me and pulled me down to him crying. We both cried for what seemed like hours until I finally fell asleep in his arms just like when I was a little girl.

July 12th

Oh diary, I hope you don't think I'm a total slut and idiot when I tell you about today! I came home and my Daddy was no where to be found. I was concerned at first because he hasn't really been able to walk and I knew my Mom was working. I called for him and finally a yell came from the bedroom. I went in and heard him moaning! I was scared, I thought maybe he fell down or hurt himself. I ran to bathroom where the door was hanging ajar and Daddy was in the bath! At first I turned away and covered my eyes. It was instinct more than anything but quickly I reminded myself that I had to be adult about this. He needed me and I was the only one home.
I asked if he was ok? He told me that he thought he could handle a bath on his own but once in the bath his ribs hurt too much to do anything but lay there and now even just laying in the tub was hurting. I offered to help him and my eyes scanned his body. My Daddy has a sender body and beautiful tanned skin. His arms rested at his sides and his dark crotch was accented by the white, untanned skin around it. His cock hung semi-limp in the water and as I looked at it I could see it start to rise. He apologized and I asked him what for? He said for forcing me to see an old man naked. We both laughed and I said, "Well I don't think you should say you are sorry, I think I should be the one apologizing", then I went on to poor my heart out to him. I didn't tell him about my Uncle because I thought that it might make the situation worse. After crying a little and laughing more, he told me that it was just a weak moment on his part and he wouldn't let it happen again.
During our talk I noticed his cock rise and fall several times and the more I looked at him nude in the tub the more my thoughts returned to our encounter and how much I loved him. There was an uncomfortable moment when we both realized that we were just sitting there with me looking over his body and saying nothing. Then he asked me to hand him the towel and he would do his best to get up and back into bed. I told him he was in no position to get out of the tub by himself and I would help him. He pushed himself up to the edge of the tub and I tried my best to pull him more but felt helpless being so small and him so much larger. Somehow with my help, he managed to get himself up to a kneeling position but the pain in his ribs caused him to double over and I had to hold him up. I felt so bad for my Daddy, he had always been so strong and now he was just as helpless as a child. So I pushed myself under his arms and with all my might I helped get him out of the tub and standing. The effort had left us both dripping with bath water, my clothes were completely soaked. I didn't really care but I did have on a shirt that was dry clean only so I told him to wait a minute and I pulled it off. Wearing only a bra and shorts, I helped him stand and dried him off. I couldn't help but notice that his cock stood out but not fully erect. When I dried it, I tried not to linger too much but I did run my hand across it. It was warm and grew more with the attention. I also noticed my Daddy looking at my little breasts. My bra allowed him a good view my pink little nipples through the fabric and he seemed to be taking it all in. I reached around and unhooked the bra and slowly let it drop. My Daddy smiled and told me to put it back on.
Why?
Because we have already been through this, you are my daughter, it's wrong.
It's wrong for you to look at me?
It's wrong because of what I think when I look at you. Plus I'm at a disadvantage, I can barely move and my beautiful daughter is almost nude in front of me and I stand completely nude in front of her. Help me to the bed.
But maybe it's ok to be nude as long as we do nothing more?
Just help me to the bed so I can rest these old bones.
Stop saying that, you aren't old.
Thanks Cee, and it's nice to have your kid tell you that, especially when she's looking at you naked.
So I helped my Daddy to the bed and when laid back into the bed I laid down with him. I ran my fingers over his chest and it felt wonderful to have my naked skin pressed into his. He put his arms around me and kissed me on the forehead like he always does but I put my leg over his.
Does this hurt? I asked him and he said it didn't. I could feel his cock was completely erect now and so I dared to touch it. He pushed my hand away and I pushed it back. Slowly I started to stroke his hard cock, feeling the warm skin move with every stroke. We lay there, not saying a word but me jacking-off my daddy and somehow completely happy doing it. I was better than happy, I was thrilled and found my pussy warm and tingly as he moaned with pleasure. When he started thrusting his hips up and pushing into my little hand, I felt like I couldn't wait to have his cum, my Daddy's warm, sticky cum in my hand.
No, we can't. You have to stop.
No Daddy, I don't mind. You need this, it feels good right?
Of course it feels good, but your mother is going to be home soon and what would she think if she found me a sticky mess?
I'll clean you up again.
Look at the time Ceecee, she'll be home any minute. I...I...
His hips thrust forward and I knew he was going to cum and I knew that no matter what I didn't want Daddy feeling bad and his cock felt so wonderful in my hand. I dove under the sheets and just as the first stream of hot, sticky cum shot forth, I opened my mouth and took it inside. I closed my mouth around his lovely cock and he pumped his wonderful spunk into my little belly. I swallowed what seemed like liters of his creamy love juices and felt it slide down as his cock hit the back of my throat again and again. I was almost angry when I felt him pulling me away. I didn't understand why he would want me to stop, I could have stayed down there all day but then it dawned on me that my Mother was going to be home soon. I popped my head out of the covers and sure enough I heard the door close and her and my brother already running down the hall! I leapt out of the bed and started to run for the door. If I could make it into my room before they reached the top of the stairs, I would be ok! I jumped across the room and as soon as I did I realized I was topless! My bra and shirt were in my parents bathroom! There was no time, my brother was already at the top of the stairs and my mom was already close behind. I threw on a shirt and walked out of my room to meet them.
Luck was on my side because they were so concerned about my Dad that they didn't even notice me slip into the bathroom and shove my clothes under my shirt. I did have a bit of crazy maneuvering to get out of the room but I made it and now it's just you and I.
Do you think I'm a little tramp? I mean I wasn't intending to do that to Daddy but at the same time I don't feel bad. In fact I'm a little jealous that right now Mama is in there with him and I'm stuck in my room. No one to hold me again, no one to press my body against. Oh Diary, what am I going to do? Am I going crazy?

July 15th

I had my Daddy alone again today after Mama went to work. He is able to get up and around now and even though I've tried a few times to be with him, sneaking into his room and throwing myself into bed with him, we've always had to stop. But today everyone was gone and he was on the couch watching TV. So I put on a pair of pink little panties and a white bra and went into the kitchen where I knew he could see me. I took out an orange and made my way to the chair across from him and jumped in with my leg hanging over the arm rest.
Cindy! Put some clothes on!
Why? You don't like what I'm wearing?
Cindy.
See, I knew you liked it.
I ate the orange and intentionally let the juices fall down to my chest and run down my little belly. Daddy watched intently as I ate the orange and teased him. I could see him adjust a few times and I knew I was getting what I wanted.
Cindy, come on now.
What? I'm just eating an orange.
Yeah, but do you usually just eat an orange in your underwear?
Yeah.
I smiled and he looked at me in frustrated desperation. I knew he was hard, I could see the bulge in his pants and knew he wanted me. Why didn't he just say so? I was already starting to get wet thinking about finally having Daddy's cock back inside me.
Actually, want to know a secret?
He just smiled.
When no one is home, I usually walk around in the nude.
Oh come on!
No, it's true! I've been doing it since I was little. I like the feeling of walking around naked.
So I guess you are going to get naked now?
No, I enjoy watching you suffer.
Ha, very funny.
No, I do.
Cee, you are so beautiful, this isn't fair.
Well just think of it as payback for how you treated me.
Oh! Hey, I thought you said you were sorry for that.
Maybe I was, maybe I think you should have just been honest about your feelings. We both know you love me.
Of course I love you.
No, I mean we both know you want me.
He rolled his eyes but smiled and I bounced my leg up and down over the arm rest and let him get a nice view of my legs spread open and my little panty covered pussy.
I can see a wet spot on your panties.
Oh? Well I guess I should mention I can see your cock is hard.
Don't say that!
What?
That word, it makes you sound dirty. I don't like the idea of you having sex yet.
But Daddy, you had sex with me.
This caused a look of pain to flash over his face.
Are you ok?
Sure, but I just...I don't know.
I stood and as I did my favorite song started playing on the tv, some show about the artist and so I started dancing. I love dancing and dancing in front of him, he smiled again.
Now this really isn't fair.
What? This turns you on?
Come on Cindy, you are acting like you, like you do this all the time.
What? Dance? I do.
What? In your panties?
Then I'll take them off.
So I did it diary, I peeled off my bra and panties and danced naked in front of my Dad! It felt so dirty and so fun at the same time. Then I danced over to him and he sat up a little. I pulled him around so that he was facing me and I sat in his lap with my legs straddling him so I wouldn't put any weight on him. I lightly touched my pussy to his crotch and he put his arms around me.
What? You like that?
With this he started to push his hips up so that his erection would press into my pussy but I lifted my hips up so that he couldn't touch.
No, you aren't going to do anything with me again until you tell me you love me and you want me.
But Cindy, I'm your father! You know that we shouldn't be playing these games.
Who says it's a game?
He didn't respond but I meant it and even though I was dying inside because I wanted nothing more than to lower myself onto him and at the very least rub myself into orgasm. Instead I sit in my room and hope that my Daddy comes through the door at any moment and tells me he is dying for me. That he loves me and wants nothing more than to be with me. I think it's true diary, I think I'm in love with him.

July 16th

Nothing dairy, nothing is happening. I'm just bored. Mom has been home all the time and so I have no way to get Daddy alone.

July 18th

I finally had Daddy alone today and I walked around the house in a short little skirt, stockings, a sexy little top and made sure to do everything I could to get him to look at me. He seems to be interested but he still won't break.

July 19th

Today I helped Daddy wash the car because he can finally get out of the house. I think he thought that washing the car seemed like an innocent enough thing to do but I wore a white T-shirt and little shorts and nothing else. It wasn't long before my top was completely see through and my shorts were soaked enough that I took them off wearing only the pink little bikini bottoms that my Uncle gave me. My Dad's eyes nearly popped out of his head and he was having a hard time trying to keep from showing his obvious erection. The bikini bottoms stuck to me and, when wet, I knew you could see the shape of my pouty little mound easily and my protruding pussy lips were clearly visible. Not only that but he and several boys riding by on bikes made comments about my breasts. I was tempted to take off the shirt and just wash the car in my bikini bottoms but thought that may be a bit too much. At one point I had to get past him and rather than go behind him, I pressed myself between him and the car, making sure to rub my little ass against his crotch.
Oh diary, why won't he just admit he wants me and he will love me forever?!
My poor Daddy tried a couple of times to reach between my legs and feel my pussy but I pushed his hand away saying only, "Tell me that you love me, that I'm the only one you'll ever need" and he wouldn't. So I continued to lean over the hood and the back of the car so that he and several boys he kept having to chase away could see my ass clearly. I imagine they could see a bit more than just my ass as the bottoms really show everything when they are wet. At one point he came up behind me and I was spread out over the hood with my ass in the air, acting like I was trying to reach something too far away and he pressed himself against me. His cock was eager and he grabbed my hips and started humping me right there in front of anyone who could have been watching. I let him do it for a bit and it felt wonderful, I was ready for him to be inside me, but he wouldn't say it. He just wouldn't say it so I had to be strong. I walked away.
Right now I'm laying in my bed, completely nude and writing to you. He has already walked by twice and each time I start opening and closing my legs, giving him a lovely view of my pussy.
Hmmmm...looks like I have to go diary, he's coming in my room.

So it's now early morning and I had to tell you what happened. It was so wonderful. I put you down on my bedside table and my Daddy sat down beside me. His hand moved over my leg and then down my thigh, slipping around my waist as he leaned in to kiss me. Then he said it, "God, I love you CeeCee. I love you so much." And we kissed. Our tongues danced together as his hands cupped my little breast. He massaged my breast as he kissed down my neck and to my chest.
I love you too Daddy, oh please, Daddy, tell me you want me forever.
Yes Cee, I love you and want you forever, until the day I die.
Oh Daddy, fuck me, please fuck me.
Then my Daddy opened the zipper to his pants and let them slide down on the floor. His cock danced up and down as he pulled off his shirt. I sat up and took his cock in my mouth and felt every warm, hard inch of him. I licked down the length of him and kissed his balls. He moaned softly but the teasing and lust between us was too much to delay any longer. My Daddy moved over top of me and pushed his wet cock into my drenched little pussy. I gasped and threw my head back as he pushed inside me. I felt my Daddy's wonderful cock down deep in me, I could feel it in my belly and I moaned and told him I loved him. I wrapped my legs around him and he pulled me up to him so that I was lifted off the bed. Then, with him holding me tight, he fucked me and I lifted myself up and down on his long hard shaft. It only took minutes for him to cum but as soon as I felt his body go rigid and his cock start to release it's streams of hot cum into my creamy pussy, I came with him. We screamed our love for each other to the empty house and I begged him not to pull out of me, never to pull out of me. I begged for him to stay inside me forever. But all good things have to come to an end and before we knew it the front door opened and they were making their way around the house, calling for my Daddy. He was forced to put his clothes on but I stayed nude, asking only that he lock the door behind him. My mother tried to get me to come out of the room but I lay here, wishing never to leave, only to feel the remainder of our love clinging to my little thighs.
I love this feeling, I feel so safe, so warm and protected. I can't wait until the next time.

I love you Diary, my friend. I'm so glad we can talk and you don't judge.